Sleep Dilemma: Brain vs. Body

My body is starting to tell me things. Well, maybe it is past telling and is more like yelling. I am not sure if this new thing is caused by the one hundred pounds I have gained or if it is an age thing, the way my body is going about this is all wrong!

Last night, I had this monstrous headache and felt nauseous. I certainly don't want to get sick. It was late and I already didn't have that much sleep from the night before. Tonight, I was starting to get a headache and again becoming nauseous. So I again headed to bed.

Then, like most nights, I climb into bed completely exhausted and my brain just won't quit. My brain is having this party of thoughts going on in there. It is telling me of the things that didn't get done tonight like preparing Jada's medicine for the week (because we are cool enough to need a pill container for am and pm meds) and that I forgot to write her teacher a note about her daily charts. And my brain is replaying the day over for me to relive the choices I made, some good and some not so good. I think about all the struggles that Jada will face tomorrow and how easy Erin is. I think about the battles that went on today and how both girls have so much to deal with at a young age. I think about the week ahead and worry about being a failure at two jobs.

And all the while my body is melting into the bed trying to tell my brain to give it a rest already. Some nights my body wins and is able to shut off my brain more easily than other nights.

But not tonight. Tonight, I got up. I prepared medicine. I wrote the teacher a letter. And now I am writing this blog. Maybe, just maybe when I attempt the whole bed thing again in a few minutes, there just might be a little less going on in that party my brain likes to have when my body is shutting down.